What should i do now? was i selfish? but right from the start, i was straight and i changed. now to think of our 8months tgt, i feel a crash upon my heart. how am i suppose to lie abt this feeling to you when you will find out eventually? besides i tot we had an argreement of honesty and intergrity when we were tgt. I tot of making our love life more interesting by learning to aprreciate you. yes maintaining a rls is really tough especially when we are of the same sex. but i never gave up. so what am i suppose to do now? i still love you, can u allow me to sort my thoughts out first? the last thing i wanna do is to be selfish and leave you, becox i always knew u were special. you may think that i dont accept for who u are now, but i really did for the past 9 months tgt. i was really happy with you. you might not know how much its tearing me apart, becox while i say this, i hurt myself more. should i stay and fight till our love diminishes to zero?