SHE LOVES COLOURFUL STARS.

Your name,mine.

Your smiles are flawless enough.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011 @ 6:22 PM

I'm impressed you can still ask why I didn't even look at you.
So you think every time you hurt me and the next day I'd forget it?
So you think just becox you are a mother you can hurt me like this?
Who exactly are you?! Can you stop? Stop doing this to me! I rather you leave me alone.
Why did you give birth to me and now hurt me so bad?
I could have been a cheerful and wonderful child, who grows up to be someone powerful.
Why must I have such a background?
I quit you.
I don't need you. You won't change

Monday, November 28, 2011 @ 8:27 PM

I would never forgive you. You made me died many times
You made me insane, I'm now infested with hurt. I feel hatred yet fear.
1st suicide:" I slit my fucking pretty wrist and arms with yr scissors"
2nd suicide:" sat on the balcony and holding yr meat knife"
3rd suicide:" bang my head on the wall till my lips bleed and consume 1bottle of cough syrup with 10 panadols"
4th suicide:" ate 8 panadols and half bottle cough syrup"
How many more times do you wanna play with my life? A 13yr old kid can suicide till she's 19!
What the fuck have you done to her?
How do you want her to forgive you when you hurt her so fuckjng deep?!
What exactly have you done!?

Monday, November 21, 2011 @ 11:01 PM

NatSoh, I depise you muchly. Why don't you push yrself to yr limits?!
You used to be a strong powerful dominant women. You were a leader, what happen now?
You seem so lazy, taking yr parents money and yet working so many part time jobs previously.
If you wanna earn much money, be prepared to sacrifice yr time!

@ 10:50 PM

I could work hard and be rich starting from now. But what have I not dared?
If I could, I would try.
But i am not ready to do dry sales.
Things will not remain the same if I choose to work this path I know.
Everything will change, and events may no longer be my strong point.
If I can make a wish, it would only be, let me have happiness as well as wealth and a happy family:/

Labels: Pathetic life

Thursday, November 10, 2011 @ 12:04 AM

ALL FAT AND DISGUSTING

Today was a wasted day. i guess im not ready to step into society yet. weighing so many things at a go may topple me anytime. sigh. studies yet confident and how can i strive outside? no?

well, some says strive when one's young but the amount of things i have in hand, i have to balance them.

Studies is my priority, my family domestic affairs, rls, work?

there is no impossible but i only have 24hr a day. besides, im such a solo rider.

i need to spend time for myself alone so that i don't suffocate and die.

working on my figure and comprimise my attitude, further less savings.

such worries gave me sleep disturbances. so much from events to sales. im still sticking to events. i love the organising, planning, and i do enjoy the sense of satisfaction muchly after every customer's feedback of WELLDONE! :D

Labels: too late., too lil

Tuesday, November 1, 2011 @ 10:59 PM

Day 1 of depression:
Having a very bad feeling that it's depression kicking in.
You made me utterly disappointed in everything I do
What am I suppose to say when I'm all chopped up while you're feeling okay.
I dun want this to affect my studies. Anything but studies please.
God, I pray for you enlightenment and pls make me okay.

Labels: Murderer