im currently working on pjms project.. very guilty to have not take on my leader task and give specific instructions.. sick this week and its really killing me:( i hate the headache part the most.. its burning off my brains last night as i was really burning high.. 39.3? almost wanted to go hospital but didn't.. scared i'll not make it there alone..

anw.. today after class end at 4pm. wanted to go down and visit ssbj, but she's not feeling well. so i don't wanna disturb her rest time.. so went to junction b have dinner with my girls instead.. den went down to queens to get my BM cert from Mohktar.. met those swim boys.. looking good on their physics.. haha.. one of them was hot.. i couldn't take my eyes off his electrical eyes.. i promised him i'll get down next week or smth? hahah.. went home and took a bathe.. had maggie mee for dinner.. den started coughing... and coughing badly till blood clot came upon:'( and nose bleed after 5 mins:( damn sad shit.. dunno why im so weak lately.. i normally not so weak one.. :C

plan tmr: go sch, attend lessons, hang in there, visit ssbj if im able to, head to friendly, head home do project. (:

i know its been hard for you and may god bless your dad.. (: angels willl protect him up there. and please stay strong.. not everyone can hang in there during this kinda situation.. but well.. you are a strong girl.. i know im rather annoying at times nagging you to take care of yrself.. but i dun want you to fall ill you see.. and you still have to worry about yr mom and sis.. sigh... in any case.. im just here.. right here for you.. this is the 234323498 million times im saying it already.. but i hope you know that someone is out there for you.. hope you feel secure and better in coping.. (: handle yself with care and dun exhaust too much.. hope you can tide this period through smoothly.. hugs... i am nobody to your life, thus i don't wanna poke in too much anymore. sometimes i'd really wanna go down and visit you but you need some time alone with yr family too.. and they need you more than i do(: i can udnerstand... (: ppl are saying im foolish.. am i? :D haha. oh well.. you are worthy of my waiting time. haha. waited for you for a month! goodness. hinted you like 234234ttimes. but its alright.. even if you only wanna be friends, im still gonna stay here for you(: jiayou!!

sometimes i think i care too much and talk to you too much.. haha. abit weird right.. but its okay... im being a little paranoid when im sick haha.. (: jiayou for the match tmr(: take care of yr body! dumbass.

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