i have no idea if you've read any of my post.. but.. its over exam.. and im gonna handle my feelings now..

thats the thing about being a bisexual
ssbj: i'd really hope you are fine. i know im overboard. im not being fair. but i'd really dunno whats on yr mind.. and im taking it real slow.. im sorry if i've made you disappointed or anything.. im thinking of you right now... a big question mark is on yr head.. yes.. i do have affections for you.. i do have heart racing feelings for you.. perhaps its crush.. im taking it slow to know more about you, about my feelings to you and yours... whenever i needed you badly, i'd really hope you would give me a hug and tell me everything is gonna be fine. just fine with you around. perhaps these words are free. all free.. i dun dare to take any action becox i feel so inferiority inside.. im feeling if im too fast.. when tears roll down yr face, i'd really wanna wipe it off and say its okay.. a hug.. but my courage was gone.. i felt so bad.. time to you is smth important becox you have a guarded heart.. so am i having one.. no one would like to be a rebound or substitute.. sigh.. perhaps i should give you more time.. perhaps you have someone else outside. though you once told me you have no one special.. i guess right now, i can only leave you the space you needed badly.. pwease be fine(: im waiting for your text.

ac: you instead do not have time. no more commitments can you give.. i have told you all my thinkings in the afternoon.. spilling all my mind, no doubt its right or wrong, selfish, demanding, stupid or even foolish.. like you mentioned in the talk, what if there's a girl awaiting for you? will i make a move and thrash her? will i? im really lost at words... you give me everything i need.. but i took it for granted.. now feelings are thrashing me... are you still happy and enjoying loving me? or are you just staying for the sake of depreciating yr sadness? sigh....


oh god... i dun wanna be selfish.. im making a choice for good.

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