oh my.. my blog is dead... well well well.. haha.. these few days are super on hits crazy... spent money like mad.. im trying to save up for my holiday and also my chalet.. hahah..

school is like mad today.. i can die from the steaming heat... i can hardly breathe.. but.. i guess i was just ranting.. i'll be fine after im in air con.. :)

recently.. many things happen.. ask me what's going on? i'll reply you, no idea..
i am stuck in a situation.

i dislike the way to you give your words.
since we've said to be friends, make sure you mark your words.
i given you the trust that you will have nothing more than friends for me.
even if you can't let go, you have to act like you can.
i dislike the way you take chance to get close to me..
its not very nice of a feeling. im uncomfortable..
you are not my bf, don't act like one.
i need a friend from you instead of a bf. get this clear straight.
silence isn't approval.
don't try to get anything out from me.
anw. stop looking at me, or keeping my photos or snapshots of my privacy.
i dislike that. respect me and yourself.
we are all young adults, you should know.

grass is green.
hmmm.. i guess i did made an impact on you.. im sorry to have made us this far.
i am a really really mean person. i don't deserve you.. open your options to some other ppl who deserve you more. i shouldn't have gotten this far with you. shouldn't have made you wait and stuff. But i do admit i do have some affection for you, your sweetness, your caring attention, your tolerance for me and my actions. But inside me, you know that i am stupid. stupid enough to wait for someone who will never be back.. (:
i loved you muchly as a good friend.

sneezing~
i really am.. hahaha.. do you really miss me? or perhaps its just entertaining words. I ain't any different from you.. we met the same road at the cross end. It really faded when you were with her. knowing more than what i can see from you, knowing how much that lil girl can impact you, knowing all your needs are her. i didn't dare to speak a word. you always wanted to push me to another, so i went and tried. i did. i almost fell in. but i pulled it back. becox i know that you would be rather affected. plus.. i have to be true to myself. i have no intention to hurt her nor you. so best is to leave. recently when i think about you, i was wondering what excatly happened between us.. could we have progressed? or would we have part?
i guess you and i need some time to let things go and try to start anew. i don't mind trying. becox when i fall, i know i will pick myself up..

its all between me, myself and i..
isolation is needed.. (:

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