sometimes when you have pick yourself up from some hard hit, you would wish that your beloved you've chose would be there to support..
i choose this path, i'll stick to it.. by hook or by crook.. you will be the one..
btw.. ytd match was a disaster.
i have no confidence...
the team is so weak..
i lost my temper..
i can't trust the team..
i have no motivations at all..
the team is totally like a weakling.. using their super eye power thinking everyone else is able to have this abilty too.. sigh,.. if you guys really do.. you guys would have won..
sighhhh.. im disappointed in the coach.. not the muchly the team..
what she had said has applied some impact on me.. perhaps the team really is just for recreational
if thats the case i'll consider back..
im once taught in the hard and tough way.. i used to be main player. i used to be a strong fighter. with a team of dioe together work together..
now threw myself into such a weak team. no telephaty nvm. worst is no team work. and coach sit and do nth.. hello..
haix.. forget it.. no one will understand the feeling i have.
im demoting myself into such state,.. that i feel that im like a crippled useless loser..
i can be trained to a tough baller. i need my coach back.. i want to be strong.. not weak!

i've nothing much to lose now..
i've muchly most of them..
obstacles... obstacles.. come hit hard now if you want..
else the next time you come, it won't be as easy to hit me again.. :)
it seems that i need to work double the work now..
i don't expect things i've lost to be back. but i'll do my best to gain most of them back!

emotionally breakdown is nothing for me..
im numbed..
i have only few aims now.
i know this period is noth gonna last..
im so gonna walk over this period and be a better man.. :)

after the moody dark clouds,will there be always a bright colourful rainbow awaiting for me..
and i'll make it..

Natalie delias soh is not someone to mess with...
she may have her weak points,, but its not always gonna be weak at times. :)

littlest things are the most impactful things to me..
i will do whatever it takes to stick with you thick and thin..
sometimes i have no idea if you are understanding or not..
but to me.. you are... i make sacrifices for you.. doesn't mean im forcing myself till the end..
it means you are as important. as worth the sacrifice. as matters in my heart..
i'll do my best for you.. and i am....
if one day you were to make me fall real hard to hit the ground, i'll really shatter.
i hope you are not in a hard position with your friends..
sometimes i do think if its a good or bad thing that i entered your life.
when you found me on 13 march, i was half dead.
the only strength i had, was to breathe and write these words:"i am hurt"
i thought you were an antidote for awhile.. but i trusted you and went on..
i hope we can grow our feeling deeper.
i know you have not much time for me..
but i don't demand any.. i am as understanding..
we give and take..
i can take this time to gain whatever i've lost..
and you can pursuit your studies..
i don't need a car. i don't need alot of money.. i don't need your 24hour.
i need you. i need your attention. i need your presences. i need your sticky heart.
i believe those materialistic things can be purchased when we are older. when we gain success.
but now.. its the feeling to sustain everything..
if im not hot one day.. will you still stick to me?
thinking about it. haha..

talking about hotness.
isn't it what everyone is after?
all guys are after the hotness.
all girls too.
hot girls are hot for a reason.
hot-temper, hot-patience, hot-attention seekers, hot-figure,hot-mentalilty, hot-confidence.
they have their good and bad..
if you can't accept their bad.. den let go of their good.. becox you aren't really loving them..
=( i want to be the hot girl yes.
but i know i have to pay a price for that..
oh well. wrote so much junk.. time to go study my lifesaving.. :)
weet weet..

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