okay... bf just now brought me to holland villange to have my xiao long bao buffet..
AND I REALLY MEANT BUFFET..
he ate so much.. oh my.. my share even..
but im growing real fat tooo.. haha..
on diet all the way now...
sigh.. but i ate 2 chocolates just now..
sighhh.. talking about them..... it is bad enough...
im speechless for this... never meant to feel this way, but the feelings came when i open the box..

i thought things were sad simple as 1,2,3
i really thought so.. but i know i will make sure im okay..
im still spinning.. why?
i changed hp... using bf's now..
and it seems so empty.. so blue.. so cold..
no messages, no hearts, no vibrations nor calls..
no sweet talks.. nothing... i miss them..

the night is so cold now.. i used to go town with cliques and friends on sats...
its never down... but now.. my heart feels sick.. sick.. yes.. yes i mean..
im getting so old and useless... im so childish, selfish, greedy and bitch..
i need to talk it out... to someone who is neutral..
i need to feel your presence.
yet i need to see your face.
the feeling is diff. im in a delima.
you make me lose my sense.

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