the heartbroken girl drank the weakest drink and got drunk..
i said whatever i shouldn't.. i did smth i shouldn't.. im guilty.
i can't forget Y... why are you so nice? why? just why?
and i can't leave J, i've throwed feelings for you..
what the fuck did i do...
first i ditched and broke a girl's heart..(amy)
next i hurt someone who truely loves me. (Y)
den i made him upset..(J)
why???
im feeling so terrible..
i want to spill the milk..
i want to take a cup of (forget love water) and slp.. never waking up!

(A)
i told myself to be heartless to drop my feelings for you.. i tried.. heartless pill works.. and now i succeed.. when i see you loving her so much, i surrendered.. i've lost.. and even if we went on, you wouldn't stay.. when i saw you ytd, i feel like holding you. but i held back as much as i can...
(Y)
忘記你我真的做不到, why are you treating me this good? im so guilty..when im so tired.. you are always there to be my pillar.. i shouldn't have make out with you. i shouldn't have done all those stuff to hold you back. den the next step i know im gonna hurt you.. you did nothing wrong to deserve all these... i'll take extra strong heartless pills if thats the case..
(J)
i don't know if you are reading this or not.. but i seriously threw some feelings for you.. thank you for accepting me for who i am.. thank you for the care and love. i know we can get stuck for long. but i really hate to wait for your reply text until late nights and even stay up just for you... i want to see the text. i need the attention.. do i really mean a thing to you? have u given a thought? im putting effort.. i really am..
(YS)
YOU KNOW WHAT? I CAN'T BEAR TO DELETE THIS BLOG. BECOX IT CONTAINS ALOT OF SWEET MEMORYS.. WO BU GAN XIN. SAY I AM SENTIMENTAL. I NEVER THOUGHT THINGS WOULD TURN OUT TO BE LIKE THIS BETWEEN US EITHER. I PROMISED YOU WERE MY LAST GIRL. AND I DIDN'T BROKE IT.. (AH PUI PUI) IM TURNING STRAIGHT NOW. EVEN IF I CAN'T LET GO, I'LL FORCE IT AWAY. I'VE CRIED ENOUGH NIGHTS FOR YOU.. ITS TIME TO REALLY LET GO.. LET'S PART OUR WAYS.



can i m.i.a all the way? i feel like drowning myself. i want to slice my meat. i want to stop my heart from beating. please......