nat ate 10panadols and cried to bed becoX of all of you. Her close frenz.
Her good frenz.
Her family.
Sigh. She wouldn't want to celebrate her birthday anymore. Its no big deal to you guys anyway. And ya. Don't give nat empty promises, she'd rather u give her none then hurt her until this deep. She trust none of you now.





BIRTHDAY?

today is natsohlizhen's 17th birthday. december 29.
she was really upset last night.
she woke up this morning getting texts and she smile.
but a min ltr more texts came in. and she got bombed by her good frenz who never fails to celebrate her birthday. but this year nat was fucked cared.
she went out to help mummy fax a extreme important letter.
den she went all the way to yew tee to pass besti her shoes.
den she came home. felt lost.
she was waiting for someone or just anyone to call her to cheer her up.
but none did. so she went to the kitchen to grab a packet of curry flavour maggi noodles to cook and eat.
5 mins ltr she lied on the sofa crying.
1 hr ltr she is still crying.
kai enn gave her a call and came to her house.
kai enn was only 4yrs old. he gave her a tissue and said happy birthday :')
kai enn gave her a peck on the check and said:" zeh zeh, don't cry (:"
this was the second time crying on my birthday. perhaps i shouldn't be born.
i called mummy, she reject my call, daddy didn't pick up.
i don't feel like talking.
i only want someone to stop my from crying.


Day 238 without you and tmr is my birthday. Went for car wash at your previous sch. Can't helped but remembered about you and i sitting there and the laughters we made. You didn't realise how special u've been. Missed the times we were sticky gummies. But what i can do is to try in everyday of my life to wash us off. Your tears are still in my mind. Your smiles melts in my heart. Your my everything. Im happy to be who i am to you now:) lets hang in there.


you told me on a sunday that it wasn't ganna work
i tried to cry myself to sleep cause it was supposed to hurt
we sat next to the fire as the flame was burning out
i knew what you were thinking before you'd say it aloud
don't say you're sorry cause i'm not even breaking
you're not worth the time that this is taking

i knew better
than to let you break my heart
this soul you'll never see again
won't be showing scars
oh no no
you still love her
i can see it in your eyes
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie
everytime you lie

i woke up the next morning with a smile on my face
and a long list of gentlemen happy to take your place
less trashier much classier then who you prove to be
how longs it ganna take before you see that shes no me

oh no
i knew better than to let you break my heart
the soul you'll never see again
won't be showing scars
oh no no
you still love her
i can see it in your eyes
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie

at night, awake,i will be sleeping till morning breaks
that's the price you pay
for your mistakes
goodye to dreaming

so don't say you're sorry
cause i'm not gonna listen

i knew better
than to let you break my heart
the soul you'll never see again
won't be showing scars
oh no no
you still love her
i can see it in your eyes
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie

ooh
everytime you lie
don't say you're sorry
ooh yeah
don't say you're sorry
oooh
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie


hahaha. world!!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! :)



so what if i wanna hold you
well guess you're absenties
so i never wanna need you
and our memories are suppose to seize
silence to everything to give me chance for tomorrow :)

everybody knows that i was such a fool to ever let go of you
but baby i was wrong and yet i know im sad
we'd be better off alone, it was time we'd moved on.
i know i've broke your heart, i didn't mean to break your heart.

i know u can make me wait, but im not gonna wait.
i can tell you face to face that i was lying to myself.
now im dying in this hell. i can't blame you for being mad.

you still love her, i can see it through your eyes everytime you lie.
i knew you better.

Labels: my heart is bruised by you

hahah. christmas is fun! woah! i love christmas.... :) nat is happy.. she got a surprise advance birthday from her lovely sweet frenz.. :DDDDD will update the pics on facebook.. :) alot pics siol...
can't wait for nat nat birthday!!!!!!!