many things happened recently...
i can't be bothered to let it out here..
else i'll scream out on my blog!
okay since we are all in the emotional world.
lets talk about it then.

you first.KM:
yes.. so what is with the happening.. i don't mind talking it out now to the world.
what do u know about lesbians?! u think its a fun world to play?lets start by points.
the deal, it was not a fake okay. i told elaine this. i would still go on with you if you pass nitec to higher nitec. and i didn't accept that fucking guy. why not try to put yrself into my shoes. asking yrself why is nat in this state where she can't move nor breathe! try forcing yrself with a guy becox you want to get out lesbian relationship asap and forget everything. try being as naive as me! when im down, i don't need him but someone else. yes. i can't forget her still you bet. so what. you think i want to go with that guy? if i really wanted, i would have fuck care you. she was my last girl. but i tried so hard to open that promise and except you. you said you would comprimise and change. but since when u did?..all you gave me were fake chunks of words and tons of empty promises.. for god sake.. grow up! if u can't make it to that deal, don't promise ppl! you will only cause someone to be disappointed and upset with u... saying sorry helps some times.. but not all the time.. don't make the same mistake over n over again. becox im not as forgiving.. im sorry.... life is like this.. prove you are worthy.. what are your stakes to let me believe you? you have none. when you gain back the trust that you've lost den talk on terms with me.

to him:
i know your feelings and i do appreciate them.. but don't you think we are moving on too fast? give me n yrself some time to change for each other. the road is long. the best is worth waiting for.. no point rushing into one n get ourselves out in anyway.. i need my own space as i have my own life.. i can't do commitments.. im sorry.. if u really love me, give both of us some time...

i so want to be alone nowadays.. i need a fren who can accompany me without conditions... and not sticky lovers.. sigh... yes yes.. i admit i am stupid.. but will you guys just let me rest and think of what i want first.. i do not want to regret on anything anymore..
okay.. i shall post many many pics soon!!!

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