okay.. friday morning went hospital kk with mum.. she was undergoing her operation... so ya.. den went to pick her up on sat afternoon... that was before i head to kia house... oh ya... den was late upon meeting kai n elaine... we trained hard.. elaine was great.. kia had tummy ache thus didn't commit much.. we did alot of self training.. elaine totally have the potential.. she is able to do what is expected.. just that she is a little tensed up on court always... hahah.. but rather fine still.. perhaps she needs more experience and make more mistakes in order to learn.. alright.. jia you... yup.. we went kia house to stay over as sun afternoon we've got a match at jalan kayu... wow!!! before that...

let me share smth with u guys... Elaine ong ee ling is fabulous.. haha.. she slpt on the slping bag den complained hot.. after the shifts and turn.. we all decided to share our woes and foes.. HAHA.. we 3 all slpt on the floor.. den Elaine was doing her splits while slping.. omg! that totally surprised me.. haha.. den she did her single dodge.. how smart.. made me n kia laughed the shit out... we ain't not stopping la... until we were really tired den bedded.. ahhah..

alright.. today's match was F-ing good.. i saw the hard work of everyone's.... excluding me.. i know i could have done better... GOOD NEWS!!!! WE,ITE, GOT THE CHAMPION!!! oh my... i was so happy together with my girls... or effort worked out... polite is coming... i know we can also do better. =D

bad news.. my bad once again... i shouldn't have done this... no excuses for me this time... i did something i shouldn't on my dearest team mate... besides, i also made her cry.. sigh.. i cried after her though.. but that's not the point.. the point is.. no matter how good i am, no one is still perfect.. and this is my weakness.. i know it clearly.. i am f-ing determined to change... i am sincerely sorry either....
read this..

June: i know i shouldn't have gave u that look of despise.. i shouldn't have put myself into your shoes... knowing ones limited and at least u gave your best.. i was once you before i turned to the now. everything has to be taught and endured.. but whatever is said or done, it can never be undone.. so i am here not only to dedicate this post to you. but also show u that im gonna change... not only for you but entire team.. WE SHALL ALL SHARE HARDSHIP AND SWEETNESS.. ONE FOR ALL, ALL FOR ONE. we will all be strong and stay as a magnificent team... none of us should be lacked.. we both have a part to play... i was wrong to despise you.. lets train hard and be equally expert shall we?

and... i was rather hurt from what u''ve said to me on court.. perhaps its true that we aren't really bonded yet. thus why.. but lets just try our best k... "I can't play already. i don't want to continue" this is the most hurting phrase i've heard on court.. we all fight with our hearts out for the ball and protecting one and other from injuries.. we are all equally tired.. but we still persevere.. why can't you? why did you walk away? i was mad at myself and not you.. mad at myself for being ridiculously stupid to push you to run... thus i shouted" you can! you are able to! go on!"... den on the 3rd game, u started to get stressed and tensed up becox of yr bad throws the previous game. June, get this inside yr head.. after every game, its a new start! take a deep breathe and release the air out... don't hand over whatever happened the previous match becox its not gonna help! no point dwelling on how lousy you've been.. but the point taken is the prove the team and trust us that no matter what ball you give us. we will never ever watch is go pass us.. we will do our best to coordinate with you. i watched you letting the ball past. watched u giving up... watched u walking on court.. could u tell me what's the reason? are u giving up on the team? without yr presence the team is not one.. we said it clear. one for all, all for one.. you giving up made everyone gave up!!!!! do u know!!!! and im F-ING mad with you for this... you made me go sulky... and then the rest lacked of confidence to win so they started to anyhow whack the ball and kill their own team mates.. if u wanna give up.. please do it outside the court. becox you are not the only one playing the game.. sportsmanship is to preserver and be considerate about your team. i will never ever let u walk out of our team becox u are inside us...

i really felt like leaving the game jsut now.. but i continued becox i know my responsiblity to the team.. i am clear that i am a sportsman. this isn't how im gonna act. one wrong action i've done in the past made me woke up from everything.. thus i decided to stay and finish up my responsiblity. i hope u understand whatever i've said. we will talk more tmr. i love you! please don't think im disliking you.. i swear i did not.. becox if i did.. i wouldn't even bother to shout and scream at you when im half dead trying to catch my breathe. got me? please stay and do o=your best for the team. i can help you with your drills. everything. as long as you don't give up.. these words are never in my dictionary... i've deleted them.. lets work on it!

okay.. shall upload pictures once mika and the rest send me pics... =D
rest well girls.. tmr is POLITE..

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