today rite after sch, i came home.. i on the com immediately.. i was totally out of my heart today.. dunno wad to do.. my poa sucks.. maths sucks.. dunno wad to do.. feel like dying.. i never slp ytd.. i was crying all the way through... i told myself tat im going to be fine.. last night, i keep thinking n thinking.. but nothing is working.. i never hurt myself.. becox i know clearly tat i cannot.. becox this useless body of mine isn't mine after all.. i may have fell flat ytd.. but i tried very hard to hold my tears today in sch.. i was glad tat my poa improved alot.. but the hurt was overcoming.. the hurt was not from her.. but from myself.. i can't stand myself hurting her until she could go bonkers.. actually, theres no use of me wiping at a corner.. besides this.. i found out the truth.. i am a flirt.. i said im not but i know n i can feel im flirting with many ppl.. its unfair..a play boy for once a play boy for life.. its like a leapord tat can never change its spots.. im very sorry.. perhaps i need a break for myself.. sorry for hurting u all these while.. i couldn't make up to my promise.. im a failure.. hope u dun believe my words anymore.. although im heartbroken., but i know that i should tell u clearly im not trustworthy..

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