hmm..i think i can do it..without trying..i always feel tat i will fail... but now i know without trying to think to try...i already fail lost to myself..not the things i do..whenever i have a match..i know i will try not to think..but..part of my mind will still tell me tat i will lose..ppl tells me,if i do not even think tat i will win,i have already lost the game becox of myself..ya..but i always tried to think i will win tis game..but whenever i think n feel tat way,i will lose..i always had wonder why..hahahaha...ermm..i must really thank my gd fren..n my dinosuar..she helped my alot..hahah..treat her as my bro la..not sis..dunno why..she gives me a feeling of light n classic plus lots of style..hahahah..although i may have down times..but i will never go back to the old days..despite,i will improve from it..i believe in myself..i won't lose to myself..n i will find what i want n show what i've got!=D i must be myself..never imitate..wo ai wo zhi ji,ying wei ni men ai wo..xie xie..i will bring smiles to u all although i am fierce by nature..=D i must change for who i am! not for who u r..yea..jia you...jia you..zi bi may be weird.but it gives u power n strong enough to push yrself! go! go! go!..i still miss "her".. i should talk to her.. not getting mad abt it..yup..nvm ba..let nature take its time..ahe means alot to me..but she doesn't know..wu suo wei.. im not worthy tat it..hahahhahah..but doesn't mean ta im giving up!=) =D =X after rain..sun will come..den when rain n sun be together happily,rainbow enters..but it seperates them..:'( i hope 'wind' will talk to me.. becox rain needs wind..im rain..i need her..without her..i'll be sun..burning all ppl on earth to death.. =D