im so like pissed off la! wad the hell does she knows about me?! go n die la..i hate u doing tis to me la..i hate ppl helping me n giving me hope n then let go suddenly.. like her.tat bitch..can she make a decision?! i gave her lots of chance liao lor..tats it la! im very pissed! n the worst thing is i cannot let it out! tis is not a place for me..u all dun understand me!!!!! dun act like u do! plz..make a choice..im feeling real terrible..cannot go on..i dun wanna be bothered by tis.. choose..u wanna give me care or let me rot alone for good?!! don't drag on..IT SUX!! i make me hate u so much take i cannot tolerate yr nonsense anymore till call u a bitch..totally disappointed by u la..u gave me nothing but hatered n shattered childhood. i felt like punching u! i cannot resist anymore la.. alot of my hate is in my heart n filled up le.. bursting soon..u la! made me go bad..made me smoke..made me to drop in m studies..sigh..but i am faulty too..so i've made my decision le..im gonna ignore u for good n pull all my strengths up! make myself strong without u! im a survivor la! me,myself n i.. im gonna make it.. pull it through than stuck with tears..juz let it go la li zhen! yup!start anew! jia you! do it for yrself! u can do it..put aside all yr emotions first..needa buck extreme hard la..dun let down ppl whom cares for u.. jia you! believe in yrself..let things tat is in yr way go n pick up new things so tat u can go on. MOVE!!!!! useless bumm..always slack..haii..improve.proceed.run for yr goals.(civil defence?police force?physcologist?) take yr time to think.BUT in the mean while work hard for studies first..only aim for now..=)remember...u want it?!go get it yrself!no one will help u..ok!!!! all my friens n nanny..jia you!!!